“Loss Of My Life”

💔

I didn’t know what I was doing when I let you go.

I thought I was protecting myself.

I thought maybe you’d be better off without me.

I thought you were always going to be there.

But time has a way of teaching you…

what pride masks,

what silence costs,

and what love looks like once it’s gone.

And you…

you weren’t a girl I dated.

You weren’t a phase.

You were the moment God handed me something real; but I blinked and missed it.

You were warmth when I was cold.

Faith when I doubted.

And grace when I didn’t deserve it.

I told you I didn’t feel anything.

But the truth is, I felt too much.

And I didn’t know what to do with something that pure. Something that patient.

I didn’t trust it.

I didn’t trust myself.

And now I scroll past reminders of you in silence.

I follow voices that say,

“She’s gone. Rebuild anyway.”

“Don’t chase love. Become someone worth loving.”

But they don’t say what to do…

when the person you lost was already your mirror.

When she already saw you as worth it.

That’s the part that breaks me.

So if you can read my mind, wherever you are..

Please know:

You weren’t just a girl I knew.

You were the loss of my life.

And if God ever brings you back…

I promise to be braver next time.